I am very blessed to be pregnant. Mr. BWF and I have conceived 5 children, all in the first month we stopped preventing. Every pregnancy has been different emotionally and physically. Every birth has been vastly different as well. You would think after a planned c-section, a homebirth transferred c-section, a traumatic hospital VBA2C and an empowering unassisted homebirth, that I’ve got this. It doesn’t work that way.
Like I said, each pregnancy and birth are different. This pregnancy has been good for me emotionally. I am thrilled to have another baby. Physically it has been harder. I get tired very easily. Our situation in life has been a bit on the rough side too. A lot of transition going on. This alone has made it difficult for me to physically and mentally prepare for my upcoming birth.
I like to feel in tune and connected to my babies. I want to know I am getting the best nutrition possible. Both of these have been challenging to do thus far. For example, how can I visualize my birth when I don’t know where we will be living in a few months (we are moving again).
So here I am, 28ish weeks pregnant and trying to find that peace. So far this has been an unassisted pregnancy, like our last one. We haven’t hired a midwife, so we are planning another unassisted birth too! I do not take this decision lightly. I know where I need to be physically, mentally and emotionally.
“My baby is healthy and innately knows when to begin labor. My body knows how to birth by instinct. My mind has released all fears and trusts birth. I am enjoying this process and growing through it all.” ~BWF