I Am Strong – Overcoming Abuse and Addiction for Motherhood

by Birth Without Fear on September 29, 2015

I am strong because I fell pregnant with my first son at 14 from sexual abuse. After being physically abused and pushed down a flight of stairs I lost my son at 17 weeks gestation, I was torn. I went off the rails and off the grid, developing a drug addiction and experiencing the worst drop in my mental health yet.

I am strong because I fell pregnant with my second son at 15 to my abuser. I left him at 14 weeks pregnant after he tried to punch me in the head and stomach, chasing me down the street.

I am strong because after a year of emotional, financial, physical and mental abuse, I now had a reason to be strong and a reason to stand up for what I knew I deserved.

I am strong because I beat my drug addiction for the sake of my unborn.

I am strong because I met my husband a few weeks later after moving across the country to get away from my son’s father.

I am strong because I endured endless phone calls and messages of abuse and threats of violence.

I am strong because I went through 12 hours of labor and two weeks of slow labor without drugs and gave birth vaginally to a 7lb 11oz perfect little boy after being told my hips wouldn’t accommodate him and I’d need a c-section.

I am strong because I have made it seven months exclusively breastfeeding despite my lack of support and the teen mum stigma.

I am strong because I’m loving motherhood at 17 without my abuser and with the support of my husband.

I am strong because I am beating severe postnatal depression and not letting it control my life or what kind of mother I am.

I am strong because I am now strong enough to stand up for what I know is right and for what I deserve!

And its all because of my rainbow. Without him I would have died long ago.

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MK September 30, 2015 at 2:51 pm

Thank you for sharing your story – your strength is truly inspiring.

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valerie October 1, 2015 at 6:56 pm

he is beautiful.. and you are beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story

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Lynsey October 2, 2015 at 12:04 am

So proud of you! Stay strong! Made me cry years of joy.

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Sarah November 20, 2015 at 11:24 pm

I am blown away by what you’ve accomplished so far, and I hope you get the support and care you deserve during your journey as a young mum. Being a loving and present parent after living through such trauma, and ending abuse is a courageous act. Congratulations on your beautiful baby, and thank you for sharing your story of bravery and love here.

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