I am strong because at the age of 19, my husband and I became pregnant with our first child.
I am strong because at our first ultrasound we were told that our son would be born with “myelomeningocele”. The most common and most severe form of Spina Bifida.
I am strong because on July 05, 2011, I went in for a c-section. Jonah was born at 12:32pm with Spina Bifida, hydrocephalus, bilateral club feet and Chiari Malformation II.
I am strong because two years later we decided to try for another child, even though the chances of this baby being born with Spina Bifida were even higher than the first time. I am strong because I went through an emotional battle with myself when we found out our daughter did NOT have Spina Bifida.
I am strong because even though I had a c-section the first time, I knew I needed to go for a VBAC for the quick recovery. Our son needed me to carry him and take him to his therapies.
I am strong because I went in for my VBAC January 1st.
I am strong because I was induced with Pitocin, even though it was much against my birth plan. I am strong because I was given foley bulbs to help the process, which was also much against my birth plan. I am strong because after 32 hours of labor, I decided to get an epidural even though it was against my birth plan. I am strong because after two “failed” epidurals, the pain was excruciating. I am strong because even though I was dilated to a 7, I knew something was wrong and I needed a repeat c-section.
I am strong because I went in for my c-section around 6pm, and I woke up around 10pm that night. I knew something had happened. I am strong because I listened to my body and had my c-section just in time to save my baby and me.
I am strong because my uterus had ruptured.
I am strong because after my surgery, I spent the night having nightmares of my daughter Genevieve crying, and I could not get to her. I am strong because I finally decided to take a sleeping pill, and ease some of my emotional pain.
I am strong because I spent the next few days in the hospital, in terrible pain, with a surgical drain attached to my c-section scar, all while waiting to find out if I would need a hysterectomy.
I am strong because at the age of 22, I was told I could not have any more children without risking mine, and my unborn child’s life.
I am strong because I could not lift my son. I am strong because I had to watch him fall down and get back up without my help.
I am strong because just two weeks after Genevieve was born, I was in the same hospital again for two surgeries to remove my gall bladder. I am strong because I fell into a dark depression during this time, and I never let anyone know of my struggle. I am strong because even though I felt emotionally and physically drained, I continued to produce the milk my daughter needed.
I am strong because I continue to have those same nightmares of my daughter crying and I cannot get to her.
I am strong because even though one doctor told me not to try again, I am looking for another specialist to get a second opinion. And I will get a third, fourth, and fifth opinion if I have to.
I am strong because even though both my c-sections were traumatic, I cannot forget how alive and strong I felt during my labor with my daughter.
I am strong because if it is God’s will…we will try again.
You are amazing! What a story. The picture of both of them together is darling.
Beautiful story – ended it with tears in my eyes! You ARE strong!
You are so so strong. You are an inspiration and your children are absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing!
Wow…….You are awesome. Big up to you…….May He continue to lift you up. Thank you for sharing your Life story with us. Very inspirational.
this made tears come 2 my eyes!!!!!!!11