I am strong because I was told I would never have kids. I was 19 years old and the doctor told me I was in early menopause. They said they could put on me on hormones to boost my body back, but it would take at least 2 years for my hormones to level out. I told my husband that it would work out great because we’d both have our degrees by then. So hopefully after 2 years, we’d be able to have kids!
I am strong because 2 months later, I was pregnant. When we went in for our 8 week ultrasound, I looked at the screen and was unsure… It looked like a mirror image flipped upside down. I wasn’t sure what to say, but when I did talk, I wished I didn’t!
Me: “Are there two?”
Tech: “Yup! You’re having TWINS!”
Me: “Oh my gosh… There’s only two though right? Not 3 or 4?”
Tech: “I’m looking right at it… There’s only 2.”
I could tell the tech thought we were totally weird as my husband and I looked at each other flabbergasted!!! My husband went right back to his phone. He was at a loss for words! Of course we were excited, but we were terrified! We didn’t have our degrees yet and we were poor college kids! How would we go from a family of 2 to a family of 4?! (It all worked out great in the end though!)
I am strong because we went through a rough pregnancy with losing 20 pounds, up and down hormone levels, abnormal swelling that made it impossible to walk, bed rest at 18 weeks, and PUPPS. I dealt with everything as best as I could, but the PUPPS was by far the worst thing I’ve ever dealt with! I felt like I had the chicken pox. I used benadryl, benadryl itch cream, hydrocortisone cream, and even a prescription anti itch med. It was horrible and nothing controlled the rash. By 36 weeks, it had started to spread to my face.
I am strong because at 36 weeks and 4 days, while my husband was at work, my dad drove me to my weekly doctors appointment at 10:00 am. I told my doctor I’d bake him a huge batch of peanut butter cookies if he’d deliver the twins! He looked at me for a moment, and then said “Let me make a few calls.” When he came back in the room he asked me, “How about 5:00 pm today?” FRICK YEAH! Was my only thought! I controlled myself and told him that I’d love that! So I had to be to the hospital at 3:00 pm to prep for the C-section.
Just to clarify, I chose the c-section. I was worried that I’d have a vaginal delivery with my first and then have to have an emergency c-section with the second baby. So I chose a c-section to be safe.
I am strong because at 36 weeks and 4 days, I delivered 2 beautiful babies via c-section! A boy Dominic, weighing in at 6 lbs 2 oz and 19 ½ in long, and a girl, Gabriella, weighing in at 5 lbs 8 oz and 18 in long. They had to stay in the NICU for 11 days because they each had one slightly underdeveloped lung, and some eating issues…
I am strong because on July 9th, we took our babies home! Everyone and their dog wanted to come and visit, but we had no help whatsoever. So I pushed a lot of people away when they said they wanted to come visit. All I wanted to do was sleep! Pumping, bottle feeding, over feeding my babies so they’d sleep an extra 10 minutes, a husband working full time, and living off of hot pockets… That’s a summary of my life after twins. Haha.
I am strong because when the twins were 6 weeks old, I had a lactation consultant come help me with latch. I was SO sick of pumping! She was so great and got them to latch immediately. She told me to throw away my bottles and not even let the babies see them! So I did. I went to strictly Bfing and it was SO hard. The twins schedule went out the window. They woke up at different times, they ate at different times, they ate every 45 minutes instead of every 2 ½ hours… It was SO stressful. By day 4, I was ready to give up. My husband was my rock. He reminded me of how badly I wanted to breastfeed and how much healthier it’d be for our babies. So I kept going! By day 6, it was SOOO much easier. It was 10x easier than bottle feeding. My twins had it down completely!
I am strong because at 6 months, I got a job as a lactation consultant helping more moms learn to breastfeed! I always thought breastfeeding was something that would be a piece of cake! It’s mother nature right?? I’ll just put my baby to the breast and BAM! They’ll latch! WRONG! It was a total learning experience for myself and my babies. So I felt empowered to help other women with this!
I am strong because they’re 14 months old now, and still breastfeeding! We switched them over to cloth diapers too! They’re the healthiest children I’ve ever seen. They’ve had maybe 3 short lasting colds over the past year, no ear infections, no crazy illnesses… They’re just plain healthy!
YAY for a happy ending, right?!