I Am Strong {Kylee}

by Alisia on January 8, 2014

Trigger warning: contains loss

I am strong because when I was 19 I had my daughter Madison Lee. Madison was delivered all natural on Dec 3, 2005 and screamed from the time she took her first breath until she was all tuckered out 4 hr later.

I am strong because my second daughter Marrell Louis was born July 3, 2012 and didn’t make a sound. I am strong because we never got to take our daughter home. At 8 mo pregnant our daughters heart quit beating after the cord got wrapped around her neck.

I am strong because on July 9, 2012 I buried my child, and I never thought I would bury a child., but that my child would bury me.

I am strong because my husband Levi gave me strength and my other daughter Madison did too.

I am strong because even after a year of trying to conceive it hasn’t happened….

I am strong because I have faith in God and if it’s in his plan he will bless us with a Rainbow baby.

I am strong because all though you only see me parent 1 child, I’m actually a mother of 2.

A mother is not defined by the number of children you can see, but by the LOVE she holds in her heart.

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stephanie mushonga January 8, 2014 at 2:57 pm

Your baby girl was/is absolutely beautiful. I am sorry for your loss and hope that soon you’ll conceive your rainbow baby.

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Diana January 8, 2014 at 3:43 pm

Thank you for having the courage to share your touching, sad, but nevertheless hopeful story with us. As a bereaved mother myself, I exactly know what you are writing about. Stay strong and hold on to the love for ALL your children.

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Deborah January 8, 2014 at 5:36 pm

Thank you for this. I lost my second son Joshua July 29, 2010 the very same way. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of him. Since his lost my husband and I have conceived 2 children Will who is 21 months and Mason who is scheduled to be delivered Feb. 10. Our oldest son is 5. God has blessed us and will bless you all on his time.

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Susan Courtney January 9, 2014 at 5:17 am

I feel so fortunate to have two healthy children, with my son born in 2002 and my daughter born on 31 July 2013 not long after your beautiful angel.

I am so sorry for your loss – I cannot imagine the pain that you and your family have been and are still going through.

My parents lost my sister at 7 months of age (she would have been 2 years older than me) and while they found a way to go on, I know that the pain is still there under the surface and it’s been 44 years.

Thank you for sharing your story and the beautiful photos of your angel baby. I hope that you are blessed with your rainbow baby soon.

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Julie January 9, 2014 at 10:40 pm

We lost our son the same way. May God give you peace to go on. It’s so hard, but with the Lord’s strength, we have continued living the best we know how.

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Prairie Wife January 31, 2014 at 9:33 am

“A mother is not defined by the number of children you can see, but by the LOVE she holds in her heart.” Love this, thank you for sharing.

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