Mr. BWF had to call his boss to tell him I haven’t birthed yet and to keep him off the schedule for next week (told him that would happen). His boss asked, “So, is she getting induced?!” Mr. BWF said, “No, we do things naturally and let her body and baby go into labor on their own.” His boss wasn’t too happy, but I was.
Now, it’s still hard in these last few weeks to stay patient, especially when being ‘post dates‘. This is the 4th time out of 5 pregnancies that I have found myself here. You might think that I am used to it and that it’s no big deal. After all, I am “Mrs. BWF”! Right?
Wrong! I don’t think I’ll ever get used to being pregnant for 42+ weeks (by the way, yes, I do know when I conceived/ovulated, etc).
My pubic bone pain has been at an all time high the last few days, my pelvis won’t hold an adjustment and my body has been warming up and experiencing prodromal labor since 37 weeks. So, this morning when I woke up still pregnant, I felt despair.
I chose to take a nice hot bath by candle light and meditate on my thoughts to recenter myself. One day at a time, right? This is what I realized today:
I am on the outside with exhausting thoughts and emotions. With aches and pains that bring me to tears. With the world throwing their “knowledge” and opinions at me like shards of glass. Some get through my outer layer of defense, piercing my confidence. They sting and hurt a little bit until I can rid of them.
BUT, my sweet baby is inside of my womb, protected from all of this. Baby is happy, comfortable and safe. Most importantly, the veil is thin for my baby and his/her wisdom is infinite. Regardless of how I feel, I know this as truth. I trust that God, my body and my baby are perfect. They are not cluttered with the “knowledge” of my mind. They are pure.
Today is still proving to be a hard one for me, but I have the love of my husband and Paradise Bakery chocolate chip cookies to get me through! Thank you for all the love, thoughts and prayers you are sending my way. They are needed, accepted and appreciate. ♥