Mr. BWF had to call his boss to tell him I haven’t birthed yet and to keep him off the schedule for next week (told him that would happen). His boss asked, “So, is she getting induced?!” Mr. BWF said, “No, we do things naturally and let her body and baby go into labor on their own.” His boss wasn’t too happy, but I was.
Now, it’s still hard in these last few weeks to stay patient, especially when being ‘post dates‘. This is the 4th time out of 5 pregnancies that I have found myself here. You might think that I am used to it and that it’s no big deal. After all, I am “Mrs. BWF”! Right?
Wrong! I don’t think I’ll ever get used to being pregnant for 42+ weeks (by the way, yes, I do know when I conceived/ovulated, etc).
My pubic bone pain has been at an all time high the last few days, my pelvis won’t hold an adjustment and my body has been warming up and experiencing prodromal labor since 37 weeks. So, this morning when I woke up still pregnant, I felt despair.
I chose to take a nice hot bath by candle light and meditate on my thoughts to recenter myself. One day at a time, right? This is what I realized today:
I am on the outside with exhausting thoughts and emotions. With aches and pains that bring me to tears. With the world throwing their “knowledge” and opinions at me like shards of glass. Some get through my outer layer of defense, piercing my confidence. They sting and hurt a little bit until I can rid of them.
BUT, my sweet baby is inside of my womb, protected from all of this. Baby is happy, comfortable and safe. Most importantly, the veil is thin for my baby and his/her wisdom is infinite. Regardless of how I feel, I know this as truth. I trust that God, my body and my baby are perfect. They are not cluttered with the “knowledge” of my mind. They are pure.
Today is still proving to be a hard one for me, but I have the love of my husband and Paradise Bakery chocolate chip cookies to get me through! Thank you for all the love, thoughts and prayers you are sending my way. They are needed, accepted and appreciate. ♥
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Beautifully and honestly written. I have never gone past 40 weeks (give or take a few days) just out of plain luck, but I can still empathize. Kudos to you and your wonderful hubby for trusting in the process. Can’t wait to hear the update soon that you are holding your beautiful baby!
Much love to you BWF one of the huge joys of letting nature take it’s course is knowing that any day could be ‘the’ day and even the most comfortable with that have days of despair, of waking up and cranking it with the world because last night wasn’t the night you were to bring baby earthside.
I know you know the sayings but I am going to say one anyway…
The time is closer then ever before for your baby to come earthside on his or her terms remember this in these last days/weeks of pregnancy <3<3
I love your pure honesty and how you keep it real (100%)!!! I pray that as you go day to day with your pregnancy that God will give you the strength you need to make to the time you meet your 5th blessing!!! If you need to vent do so no need to hold anything in… Keep up the good work no matter if you do have haters on the blog/BWF fb pg. You still have a number of supports which outweighs your haters!!! You are still 100% human and no one knows how you feel but you. I will continue to bless you and your family with prayer and good support.
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You are so brave!!! I know how you feel getting towards the end of your pregnancy and being so uncomfortable you just dont want to do anything! Be patient Mama your baby is worth it! Most women would say “induce me!” but you’re so much stronger than that! Keep us posted on the BWF facebook page!
how lovely that your baby can choose his/her own birthday instead of some “white coat”. trust that they know the best time to come.
the following article may (or may not) make you feel better:
http://www.joyousbirth.info/articles/drcommentsonpostmaturity.html
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Well done, you. You are a powerful woman and an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your journey.
Awww! We love you!!
I love your strength and honesty about trusting your body, and admitting it isn’t always easy. I think it is important to share that, as it allows us to know that aiming for that goal isn’t always perfect. Thank you for sharing yourself.
You are amazing, Mrs. BWF!! You are an inspiration and your blog is a joy to read. I so know how you feel going “post dates” it’s enough to cause prenatal psychosis! You will get through this season and your birth and baby will be an amazing reward!
Hang in there Mama. Your child is blessed to have you, so wise and trusting.
Hang in there mama! You’re doing great! Keep trusting your inner intuition
Your baby is so blessed to have you as his/her wise mama. Out of all the mamas in the world, this baby has chosen you. I was 19 days “overdue” and I finally learnt to surrender. This too shall pass. Sending you magic sparkles of love and light.
Keep doing what your doing Mama! You are strong and it wont be long until you have your baby in your arms and this will just be a memory! You are so Lucky to have such an understanding wonderful husband (who brings you COOKIES!!) lucky girl! You are an inspiration to me and I <3 you! ( i know i know… i dont "know" you… but I still love you!)
I will keep you in prayers and keep on sending you those Birth Vibes! .. oops.. Labor vibes! Your baby knows exactly what s/he is doing!
I cant wait to hear his/her story!
Love to your family!
I’ve never gone over 40 weeks, but I tried every natural induction method I came across (other than castor oil) with no luck whilst pregnant with my second. It was only when I let go, stopped listening to family members who kept going on about how I was going to go into labour any day now (we all have approx. 38 week gestation cycles) and accepted that I was going to go until at least 40 weeks, if not longer, that I actually went into labour at 38+5. Thank you so much for your blog and your Facebook page. I love the encouragement that you provide for mamas and dads.
Where is the “like” button? Nuthin’ better than choco-chip cookies!!
Thank you for sharing yourself so bravely! I am currently 41 weeks, 2 days and receiving pressure from my caregiver for testing and induction. All this despite the fact that all four of my previous children were born after 41 weeks. I am trying hard to ignore all of the well meaning concern of friends and family and stand firm that I will. not. induce.
Reading your words today gave me a boost. Thank you!
And I know you and I will both be holding your precious baby any day now, at the time they know is right.
i love this blog entry SO MUCH. and i also LOVE paradise bakery cookies!
French obstetrician and author Michael Odent likens gestation to apples ripening on a tree: ‘You wouldn’t pick them all on the same day, would you?’
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Lord, I pray that you will bless Mrs. BWF. I pray that you will let your love and your light radiate through her today so that she may know how much you love her and this precious little baby she carries inside her. I pray that you will give her peace and comfort as she goes throughout her day today and for all the days of her life. Amen.
Thank you Holly. Your prayer is beautiful. And today would be a great day to birth a baby!
And just for the record, I said today would be the day (since it’s my baby sister’s birthday! Here’s to hoping I’m right and you’re almost done!
You are SO not the only one who goes super-late. My last two babes came at 42+6 and 41+5, and my husband’s boss wasn’t happy about the “ooh, it could be labor!” for 5 solid weeks, either…!
YAY for you being patient!! Sending you happy labor vibes, whenever it does finally happen ~*~*~*~*~
With my first daughter I was forced into an induction. I was young and stupid and trusted the medical community at that point. I wish I hadn’t consented to it. I felt like I had failed. I was 41 1/2 weeks when I was induced. It was either that or a c-section which I WOULD NOT consent to by any means. I no longer see that doctor obviously, but I wish I had known of forums and blogs like this 3 years ago. It would have saved me the heartache of feeling like a failure. Anyway, I am sending good laboring vibes your way. Hope it is a peaceful and wonderful birth.
new to this site today.
1st article i’ve read.
INSPIRING!
love your honesty! With my twins i waited a month being dialated and arguing with docs who wanted me to induce at 36/37 weeks. but I knew that nothing was or had been wrong during any point in my pregnancy and nothing was showing in the NST’s so i was WAITING! I am totally against pit and other forms of inductions. I know that my baby will come when it is ready and I trust God will keep me and my baby safe! Everything was perfect and they were still pushing the induction, i told them wait another week and they did (they had no choice) and that next day my twins came at 38 weeks and 6days. Perfect in every way, vaginal birth for both which shocked my doc even more! i knew it would be fine, and it was more than fine, it was the best birth yet! My first i had pit with and it was the worst and they lost his vitals and NEEDED to get him out, it was long, hard and not fun! so i said never again. You are totally right, the baby knows when it will come out, it wont be in there forever and has to come out eventually! lol why put more of a risk on the baby by inducing and be given too much pitocin and then put them indistress? is this good for the baby?? i dont think so!
Just hang on! When I was just this much post term with me second baby- I chose to induce myself with castor oil because I’d just had enough! With my mother, my mother-in-law and ALL these outside forces…but only now I look back and realize I should’ve been looking at the INTERNAL forces and from the very moment I’d induced my labor I knew it was the wrong thing to do. It all went ok and still had a natural birth etc… But I’ll always regret it and feel I would’ve had that wonderfully pure and natural birth (as my first one had been) if I hadn’t interfered and tried to rush him. Birth regret is a horrible thing!
Good work, Keep strong, Such an inspiration to all my clients! Thank you got sharing it!
Beautiful. No other words.
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